Desperation (Kagamine Len x Reader)

  What could you not like about Kagamine Len? It was almost pathetic you were a bawling fangirl of his, while everyone else was crying over One Direction and the like. You preferred Len's ACTUAL heartfelt songs, not the ones that tried to pander to teenage girls. Len had real, genuine feelings in the songs he was written; Servant of Evil singing about loyalty and Re: birthday following with his purgatory aftermath, Soundless Voice nodding to the loss and mourning of someone, paining your heart whenever you listened to it. And even his duets were awesome, especially with his sister, Rin. Childish War was albeit not sentimental, but a pure joy to listen to since the idea of the Kagamine twins bickering like two spoiled brats was hilarious. And Death Should Not Have Taken Thee! reminded you of how much of a nerd you were with its classic RPG references.

  Ah, yes, you loved the Vocaloids. But you loved Len the most out of all of them. You were always caught daydreaming about him, or doodling him, or looking at perverted pictures of him...

  "HEY! Are you listening to me?!"

  You snap out of your thoughts, looking to your side. Your friend, Starla, had an eyebrow raised as you giggle. "Yeah, of course!"

  "Then what was I saying?" She huffs, crossing her arms.

  "Um...spouting something about your algebra teacher being so nice it hurts?"

  "...Well, that's part of it...okay, so you were kinda paying attention." She adjusts her glasses. "But what did I say after that?"

  "Something about glass..."

  "His name sounds like the Romaji form of glass, yeah. But still, I know your mind is somewhere else!"

  Well, yeah. You couldn't deny that. You probably drifted while she was talking again.

  "You were thinking about Len, weren't you?"

  You jump back, surprised about her assumption. "H-How-"

  "It's become predictable at this point." She sighs. "I swear, even though you have better taste in music than most girls in this stupid school, you're the biggest fangirl."

  "...Haha?"

  "Don't 'haha' me, you fanatic!" She yells. "You have got to stop letting your mind drift to him. It's annoying everyone!"

  "Everyone?" You ask.

  "EVERYONE. Yana facepalmed at you when she saw that sketch of him  with your OC, Andy's freaked out because she never saw this side of you, and Ashely...well, Ashely's Ashely, but still!"

  "I CAN'T HELP IT HE IS JUST PERFECT IN EVERY WAY!" You screech, bringing your hands to your face.

  "...Good Gods, you need a boyfriend." She said suddenly, taking another handful of cappuccino-flavored Lays.

  Your head shot up. "LEN IS THE ONLY ONE FOR ME!"

  "HE WILL NEVER BE WITH YOU!" She screams back, shaking your shoulders. Her voice lowered, "Honestly, I thought you were smarter than this!"

  You probably had a Poker Face on as she got her phone out, unlocking it and going on Google. "What're you doing?" You ask.

  "Finding an Otaku dating site."

  "EH?! Wh-why?!"

  "Look, I don't believe in these things at all, I think anyone who uses them is desperate and it's an easy way for someone to get killed. But..." She gestures to you, "Look at you! Everything's always about Len, isn't it? Well, in order to snap you back into reality, I'm finding you a boyfriend; we've no choice but to use drastic measures." She scrolls through the list.

  "Why can't I date anyone in the school, exactly?" You question.

  "Do you SEE any guy here who'd love a smart, cute otaku nerd?" She waves her hand all over the cafeteria. At one table, guys were blowing up their chip bags and popping them with their fists. At another, some were cuddling with their girlfriends while their friends talked about their troubles in classes. "Why do you think I'm still single?"

  "S-still! That doesn't mean I want to use a dating site!" You whine.

  "It's for your own good, friend." She says. And then the bell rang, indicating the end of lunch. "Aw, crap. Okay, meet me at my locker at the end of the day, I'm going to your house." She packs her things and gets up from her seat. "See ya later!"

  As last period ended, you rush out the door and get to your locker, checking everything and then slamming it shut. You make your way to Star's locker, pushing pass the wave of people trying to go home or to their extra-curricular activity. Star was packing her backpack and checking for anything else she needed. Then she saw you and waved you over.

  "Hey. So, are ya ready?" 

  "Yeah, I guess."

  "Good. My mom says I can stay over for the night, too." She says, checking her phone. "First, I'm going home and grabbing my stuff, and she'll drive me over. It shouldn't take long." She closes her locker and ups her self, violin in tow. "I was browsing one website a bit. There are some REALLY good choices!~"

  When everything was settled, you were both at your house, scrolling through the list of single males on OtakuDate.com.

  "Ooh, this one's into Fire Emblem: Awakening!" Starla coos, swooning over one guy who was Cosplaying as Henry from said game. "How convenient, I just married Henry on my current playthrough!~"

  "I thought we were looking for MY boyfriend!" You whine.

  "Haaai, haaai, hai, hai." She sang, referencing Childish War. "You were the one hesitant to try this, anyway." Regardless, she put the guy on your "watch" list.

  "Let's look for some guys into Vocaloid, 'cause honestly, that would probably be our best bet." You suggest, typing in the interest search box for "Vocaloid."

  Looking through the list, there was quite a few options. Some guys were Cosplaying their favorite songs, some made drawings of their favorite characters, it was like nirvana for Vocaloid fangirls.

  One account made you stop dead in your...well, scrolling. His profile pic was a snapshot of Rin & Len from the concert they preformed the Story of Evil songs in, Rin in her minidress with her hair in pigtails topped with her signature bow, and Len in a dark coat over noble clothing with his hair in the same short ponytail. You clicked the link. This guy had a sort of username rather than his actual name; mothy_is_best_composer. A Mothy fan?

  "Whoa, nice choice! Story of Evil is best series!" Starla squealed, clapping her hands and jumping up and down.

  "Calm down, will you?" You tell her, while going through the guy's profile. He apparently didn't like showing his face, so that gave you one hint he was shy. His intro videos did show him playing various instruments, but he had a hood over his head and a wolf mask on his face in every one. His bio said he loved Vocaloid, and, surprise surprise, Mothy was his favorite composer for the songs that Vocaloid sang.

  "He's certainly passionate about music..." You conclude.

  "It says he's online now." Starla noticed. "Open a chat with him! Let's get to know him better!" She practically towered over you, pressuring you to do so.

  "Alright, alright!" You say, requesting a chatroom session. A few seconds later, it shows a little window saying he accepted. The room was opened and he started off:

mothy_is_best_composer: Hi

  "SAY HI TO HIM BACK! SAY HI TO HIM BACK!"

  "CALM YOURSELF, I'M DOING IT!"

You: hi. I see you're into Vocaloid! ^_^

mothy_is_best_composer: yeah, I love them, they're the best!

You: who's your favorite?

mothy_is_best_composer: Probably Rin. She's cute.

You: that is when she's not the daughter of evil killing everyone.

mothy_is_best_composer: lol true. How bout you? Who's your favorite?

You: eeeheee Len! He's as kawaii as his sister! X3

mothy_is_best_composer: that is when he's not dying all the time 

You: xD I THINK I'M DYING IF LAUGHTER ROGHT NOWXD

mothy_is_best_composer: xD

You: lol sorry typos

mothy_is_best_composer: that's ok, I don't care. ^^

  "You're off to a great start!" Star squeals as she takes another bag of chips out. "I'm gonna get some water, I'll leave you two to it.~"

  "Go ahead." You reply, typing away at the Mothy fan. You surprisingly have a lot in common with him.

  That night, you and Star were in bed, Star lying on the floor with blankets and a pillow and you in your bed above her.

  "So, how did it go?~"

  "He's really nice."

  "Added to watch list?"

  "Mm."

  "Great! Now we just need to get you two on a date!"

  "And you said dating sites were for the desperate."

  "They are! I'm desperate for you to stop fangirling over Len! That's why I signed you up!" She protests, sighing. "Let's just hope he's not a psycho killer."

  "Would you relax? Your paranoia is showing!"

  "Yeah, yeah. Anyway, his profile said he was relatively close, right? So maybe you can meet up with him tomorrow on Saturday."

  "He said he's not ready to meet in person yet. He wants to keep chatting with me until he can say that he is."

  "Oh man, this guy's a dandere." Star concluded, turning her back to you on the floor. "But I'm sure you'll be fine."

  A few months later, it was the start of summer vacation. Mothy Fan still told you he couldn't meet you yet after all that time. You respected this, and just chatted each day away at each other. You found out about each other's family, school life, and you even talked about your problems and helped each other out. Then, it was time for Otakon. This is when you got a costume of your OC ready for Cosplaying.

  You look it over, admiring all the details. And, what perfect timing, Mothy Fan requested a chatroom with you:

mothy_is_best_composer: you goin' to Otakon?

You: Yep!

mothy_is_best_composer: Awesome! I'm going too! We can meet each other there

You: yay! Can't wait to see what you look like! <3 you Cosplaying?

mothy_is_best_composer: Yeah! I'm being Shiba Tatsuya from Irregular at Magic Highschool! Here's a pic:

You: Oooh, cool! And snappy. I'm being my oc.

mothy_is_best_composer: can I see???

You: hang on

  You dress yourself in the costume and use a camera to take a picture. You send it to him:

mothy_is_best_composer: Oh, so that's what you look like! You're pretty :3 

You: heehee, thank you! ^\\^ I suppose that ruins the surprise of my identity, tho...

mothy_is_best_composer: aw, you didn't have to. I'm sorry.

You: naw, it's ok. i love how you complimented me, anyway|

mothy_is_best_composer: ^_^ at least I'll find you easily now!

You: Let's meet at the entrance?

mothy_is_best_composer: sure! See you there!

  Star picked you up, her Misaki Mei from Another Cosplay perfect, and brought you to the convention center. "The entrance, right?" She asks as she parks in the last space available. "Haha, suckers!" She rejoices at the car that almost took it.

  "Yep! He's Tatsuya from Irregular at Magic Highschool, okay?" You answer.

  "Well, then, let's go!"

  You look around the entranceway, acknowledging all the otakus and cosplayers, ready for otaku heaven. And then, a familiar white coat catches your eye.

  "That must be him!" You exclaim, waving at him. He notices you, and runs over. "...Mothy Fan?"

  "Yeah."

  That voice...

  You almost melted.

  "Nice to meet you in person!" You hug him, and he wraps his arms around you. "Oh, and that's my friend, Starla, right there." You introduce each other.

  "Excellent Tatsuya, man." She commends, extending her hand. "You dyed your hair and style it, or is that natural?"

  "Dyed and styled, but my eyes weren't far off from his, so I decided no contacts." He takes her hand.

  "Impressive."

  "Thanks. And, Misaki Mei?" He asks, and she nods. They shake hands.

  "You better thank me, I'm the one who convinced her to go on that stupid site."

  "Hey!"

  "Well, it's true!" She says, placing her hands on her hips and huffing. "Anyway, let's get going! We've got some nerding out to do!"

  So, somehow Starla, the idiot that she was, got lost in the convention when you passed a Fire Emblem: Awakening booth. She had texted you saying she was okay, and that you and your date should have time to "catch up," in a way.

  "So, anything else you wanna check out?" You ask him.

  "Not really. Wanna grab lunch? Oh! And I know this place where it's real quiet and no one can disturb us."

  "Perfect!"

  Buying lunch, you follow Mothy Fan up down and all around 'til you come to a stage hall. He opens the door, and a grand stage with rows of seats were revealed.

  "Are you sure it's okay if we eat here?"

  "Positive. We can even go onstage, if you'd like." He takes your hand and ushers you to follow once more.

  Onstage, you look out over the seats and start eating. As you chew on your food, you converse.

  "So, how's that sister of yours?" You ask.

  "She's fine. She's actually here, too. I wanted her to be Miyuki, Tatsuya's sister, but she said no."

  "Do you usually Cosplay as brother and sister?"

  "Yeah, but this time she wanted to be Rineè, from the reversed Story of Evil."

  "Ah. Oh! You never actually gave me your name, come to think of it." You realize, setting down your drink. "I always called you Mothy Fan. Heh, so what do I call you now that we've met officially?"

  He's looking forward, away from you and to the front door. His face looks real disturbed, as if he couldn't speak. He just kept staring into nothing. Finally, he opens his mouth, and says:

  "...My name's Len."

  Your heart stopped. If this was a joke, you definitely hoped he could shrug it off casually. "Ha...you...you're good! You had me there for a sec!" You chuckle, nervously picking at the wooden stage.

  "My last name is Kagamine. My sister's name is Rin. This isn't my natural hair color, but my eyes are absolutely turquoise." He turns to you. "Look..." He brings his hands to his hair, pulling it back and holding it in place. Then, using his other hand, he pulls a few locks out, making them stick out in a faint fringe outward.

  You squint, half playing along, half actually trying to believe him. And after a bit...

  Oh.

  Dear.

  Kami-sama.

  You saw it. It was a big stretch, but, you saw it. His eyes were indeed turquoise, his hair styled brunette looked very similar to a fringe and ponytail. What in the actual heck...?

  "If you want more proof..." He clears his throat, removing the hand he used to make the fringe and still holding his hair back with the other.

  No way out of Garden Eden,

  You almost nose-bled. This was unreal. What were the chances of this actually happening?

  "Look, I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but I just didn't want an average fangirl of mine to be my girlfriend. That's why I kept anonymous on my profile. I wanted to chat someone up, see if they were actually human, and then I'd date them. I didn't want a girl oogling over me just because she claims she loves me. They only like my image. But you, you're different. I spoke to you about my problems, talked about life at school, and because you never knew, you couldn't have been all over me. You like me because we share things in common, because you know who I am besides what Vocaloid pushes me to be. I hope that this doesn't change that." He takes your hands, and looks sincerely at you. "Please, if we're gonna make this work, promise me you won't see me as Kagamine Len, but as the man that you love so dear, who knows everything about you, and gives love to you as you would to anyone. I want a break from being an idol and just be another guy being and...an otaku for once."

  Silence.

  And then, you force your lips unto his.

  "All I see is a nice guy who I met on the internet, talked about our likes and dislikes with, discussed our problems with, and learned about each other's family with. A fellow otaku, nerd, and a friend, becoming a boyfriend. Len, I don't care who you are, you're in my life as a very important person to me, and that's all that matters."

  "...Thank you..."

  Oh, Starla was gonna flip.